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Happy Wednesday....

This week is going so fast because it feels like its a day earlier than it really is....today really feels like Tuesday...weird.

 

So my husband is away this week for some schooling for work...I miss him terribly of course but it leaves me some time to get some "me" projects done along with some sewing for My Etsy Store. So, I have somethings that I found on Pinterest that I am going to be making this week...I have linked back to all the original tutorials unless otherwise noted!

1.Clothespin Memo Board - This is super easy too!! There isn't a tutorial for it....I might just make one myself so you can do it too!!!
2.Fabric Covered Pots - love this because I have some fabric scraps I am dying to use!
3.New Camera Bag - This one might not get completed this week but I could get a start on it. I need a new camera bag badly because my old one is too small now!! Good excuse right?! I think so!
4.Grapevine Wreath Bird Bath - I have been wanting a bird bath for some time now but cannot find one that I absolutely love....so in the meantime I will make my own!!
5.Anthro Inspired Flowers - I am going to make these but in different colors!!!
6.Confetti Wall Art-Not sure if I am going to use gold or not but I love how cheap and easy this is.

Hopefully this inspires you to get a little crafty this week!! I will post my tutorials on all of these as soon as I get them done!! Of course I'm going to add or take away something that I feel will make it special to our home!!!!

Learning My Camera....Scavenger Hunt Style

sorry for the iPhone picture....its hard to take a picture of your camera with your camera!

Good Tuesday Afternoon....how was your Memorial Day weekend?! Mine was wonderful...Sunday was my Grandpa's 73rd birthday, so we spent the day with family at his house. Then we spent Memorial Day with my husbands side of the family!! Oh my goodness did I eat a lot. Unfortunately I forgot my camera {that I'm trying to learn} at home so I didn't get any good pictures of the spread of food that we had both days. Yummy!!!

Anyways that's not why I'm here today. I am here to introduce you to the challenge I have found for myself...it is from Ashley at Ramblings and Photos and it is called Scavenger Hunt Sunday. She, along with others, have put together lists of words or phrases for you to "describe" any way you wish with a picture. For example this week one was "under my feet" so she posted a picture of water under her feet. That's just an example but it really stretches you and causes you to use your imagination plus helps you learn your camera. There are so many great tips and ideas!!!! As a beginner I am excited to learn from her and everyone else there!!! YAY!!

Welp...I am off to enjoy a great night with my dad to celebrate his 50th birthday!! He's the best! We are going to Amish Country to eat at an amazing restaurant here called Dutch Valley! Amazing....if you ever come to this part of Ohio....GO THERE!!!!!

falcon babies

Good Morning...

Such a lovely morning isn't it? I thought I would share this with you...

 This is our local falcon, Mistic, that has made her home on top of one of the banks downtown. The great people at Abbott Electric installed a webcam so that everyone could watch the process of her laying her eggs and them hatching. Now they are the most beautiful babies...eep!!! We get to watch her feed them, sit on them {poor things} and nurture them. She is such a great mom! Sometimes it can get a little graphic when she is feeding them...you can watch her bring the food in and rip it apart with her beak. MM MM!!! {sorry the last one is a little graphic} It has been so much fun watching them grow!!

Anyways, I thought you might enjoy waching the babies now. Sorry I didn't post about it eariler so you could watch the whole process. We are waiting patiently for them start flying...did you know that they don't have to learn to fly?!? They are born knowing how....crazy! Click here...Falcon Cam...to watch!!! Enjoy! Oh p.s. try not to get too attached like I am!!! ;)

"weeds"

As I was walking down the path that goes around the lake by our house I was checking out all the "weeds" that were growing along side of it. It's truly amazes me how some "weeds" can grow the most beautiful flowers. If you think about it God makes even the "weeds" beautiful. He never creates anything that is bad or doesn't have a purpose.

 

This is a lot like people in this world. You know the ones that we consider "weeds." The ones that we throw beside the path and the ones that we take out of our life because we don't think they are good enough or beautiful enough. Honestly, I very much dislike real weeds in my flower beds. I wish there was a way to get rid of them for good. The worst ones are the ones with the pricklies on them...you know which ones im talking about...these ones!!!!!

Anyways...I have been challenged (by myself and God) to look around at the weeds and quit judging them so quickly as a bad thing. Unfortunately in my flower beds the only weeds that grow are these prickly ones that I have to dig out because I'm to sissy to pull them out {even with gloves on}. Take time to stop and smell the "weeds" in your life. Of course I'm not literally talking about weeds that grow in your garden or yard....I'm talking about people. People that God created and people that we should love. You never know...you may be a "weed" in someone elses life. Don't be so quick to pull them out of your life...they may end producing beautiful "flowers" that you can enjoy...even if it is beside the path that you're walking on.

in honor of mothers day...my best friend

my mom is seriously the most beautiful woman i have ever known. she is such an amazing person inside and out. she has taught me so many things that i cant even begin to mention. she taught me how to be not only a great woman but a great woman of God....a great wife...some day a great mother....and a great friend.

she is literally my best friend. i tell her (almost) everything. there are some things of course that are between my husband and i that dont need to be shared but anything that doesnt have to do with that shes the one i go to. she has given me great advice...on love, marriage, friendship, family relationships, work, school, God, and whatever else you can think of.

i love you momma....happy mothers day!!!!!!!

happy mothers day to all the moms and soon to be moms out there....make sunday your day...let everyone else pamper you!!! daughters, sons, husbands....PAMPER YOUR WIFE AND MOTHER...let her be her on sunday. better yet how bout all weekend. she takes care of you every other day of HER life. :)

dont worry....be happy

so as i was reflecting on this i felt the need to post about it! there are so many times when i let things that are going on around me determine how i feel. i dont want that. i want how i feel to determine things that are going on around me. i want to be the light and brightness for the people that i come in contact with throughout my day.

i dont feel like ive been doing a very good job of this. some days i dont feel like being nice or being happy (which is normal) but i want to be able to turn that around. i took a moment to look at my life and question whats so wrong in my life that i cannot be happy every day. the answer you ask...NOTHING! of course there are some things that have happened that i can let ruin my days and make me bitter or ungrateful but why?!?! that doesnt do anyone any good.

i have a wonderful life...full of great people. my husband and i are healthy, our parents and families are healthy, we have a beautiful home, we both have jobs...we may not have tons of money and be super wealthy but we dont lack for anything. things are good...there is no reason for me not be happy.

i thank God for what he has given me because it could always be worse. He has given us a life of wonderfulness (is that a word?)!!!!!!!

be happy today...and every day. if theres something/someone in your life that isnt making you happy take a look at it and make sure it/they are really worth being in your life. you have the ability to change your attitude...DO IT!

happy wednesday....

this ones for the girls...

its friday...

just a little thought for the weekend. this ones short and sweet...

we need to learn to lift eachother up. i have done this so many times that i wish i wouldnt have. i found this on pinterest and wanted to share it because its so true. we need to help eachother not break eachother down. youre not perfect either...remember that!!!

have a great weekend...were going to here in OHIO...the weather is finally supposed to be nice!!

thank the LORD!

And be ye kind one to another, tender hearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ has forgiven you.

  Ephesians 4:32

the end of the story

hello...

so i told you i would write about my feelings and the procedure at a later date...i dont want to keep dragging this out so im going to write it and get it over with...here it goes.

i had a d&c done on 4/20/12. what a day...i had to be to the hospital two hours early...i couldnt eat anything after midnight the night before. now i dont know about most of you but for me i stop eating at about 9...if even that late...so i pushed it to the very last minute :) anyways...we get there and i dont want to do it already because of the whole situation. so i change into the lovely hospital gown and the nurse starts asking me all kinds of questions...pretty personal. they ask about what we want to do with the remains of the baby and if we want to name the baby...i totally understand there are things they have to do legally but i had just found out the day before that we were losing our baby...its pretty hard and pretty devastating to have to answer these questions. so after we got done answering the questions it was NEEDLE time. she wanted to put an iv in me..UMMM NO.

mike was being very sweet and trying to calm me down but i was having one of those...I WANT MY MOM moments. thankfully just as she was going to start doing it i started to cry...well i dont know if thats thankfully or not...but she asked me if i would like her to leave and she could come back in a little bit. i politely told her yes i would like you to LEAVE ME ALONE.

finally my parents got there and my mom came and sat beside me and calmed me down...then she started to stick me again....well of course...it didnt work. so she had to take it back out and she was going to try again but it was time for them to take me up to surgery. she said well they will probably put you to sleep then put the iv in you....AWESOME! that made me a very happy girl.

so they take me to the presurgery room and tell mike and my parents that they had to leave and as soon as they did i started crying again...of course i didnt want them to leave. i wanted someone to be with me until i had to go to the operating room. so the very sweet nurse asked me if i would like my husband to come back in and sit with me til it was time to go...YES PLEASE. so mike came in and then a bunch of other nurses came around and every time a nurse came up to me they had to ask me my name....my birthday...what procedure i was having done...it was hard enough...then i had to keep telling people what i was having done...then you get the ooh im so sorry look and it makes you feel worse. i know nurses are sent from god and i believe that wholeheartedly but c'mon seriously...you have to ask me every single time you touch me what im doing here?!?

then the anesthesiologist came....o gosh. thats when it all started to get a little crazy...of course he asked me what i was having done and blah blah...then he said were going to put an iv in ya. alright...after im alseep right?!?!?!?!?! NO! here we go again...tries to stick me in the other arm. mind you...i dont have a problem with needles...drawing blood and shots dont bother me but the look of an iv...plastic...doesnt seem strong enough to get through my skin without it hurting too terribly bad...thats what freaks me out about ivs. anyways...he starts to put it in and cant get it again. i will spare you all the gory details of what happened over the next 20 minutes...i ended up getting stuck 10 different times...after the 5th time they finally started numbing the area they were sticking the iv into. THANK YOU!

finally it was time to go to the operating room...by this time they had gotten the iv in and put a little "feel good" medicine in it. they had also given me pitocin...which is good that they didnt get the iv in me til it was time to go because i didnt want to feel the crampiness of the pitocin. all i can remember is that i kept telling them not to cover up my feet...this is a personal thing that i may or may not have a slight ocd about (tell you more about it later)

next thing i know i wake up in the recovery room...i have an oxygen thing up my nose and my throat is sore (they put a breathing tube in after i was asleep). i politely ask the lady to take the oxygen thing out of my nose because it is itchy. they called mike (who to no surprise was in the cafeteria eating with my parents :)) and he came up and sat with me until they took me back down to the room we started in. i had to go through the normal go to the bathroom before you leave thing. it didnt take me long because i wanted out of there and they wouldnt take the iv that was sticking out of my wrist out until i did. i was starving because they wouldnt let me eat anything. finally they brought me a piece of toast and we were off. free to go home....where i slept and slept and slept for hours upon hours...it was lovely.

you know i never thought something like this would happen to me...no one in my family has really struggled with any problems related to pregnancy and so i didnt expect it. to be honest the night before we went to the doctor i kept waking up and thinking oh my gosh...how am i going to tell everyone that i had a miscarriage. it was the worst feeling in the world. its like when youre dreaming but youre awake but your dreaming...if you know what i mean. i cannot put into words how that news makes you feel. its a feeling that only the women who have gone through it would know. im sure its the same way with my husband and im not discrediting his feelings but to have that baby that is growing inside of you taken away from you without you being about to do anything about it is a terrible feeling that i pray none of you ever have to go through.

the thing that keeps me going is God. really...im not trying to be preachy or flakey or whatever but im serious. i have to pray 100 million gazillion times a day for peace and strength not to start crying at my desk while im working. he has helped me so much i cant even begin to tell you the things and the people that have come across my path that have helped me through it all. i have gotten private messages on facebook from people who i have inspired and helped with different things just because i decided to be honest and share my story. this is the real reason why i even shared my story in the first place. i wanted everyone to understand that there is HOPE. without HOPE there is no way that i could have made it through!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hope that one day we will see or precious baby again...hope that we will have more children and they will be healthy....hope that my body is whole and healthy to have those sweet babies form inside of my womb.

thank you for letting me share this personal story with you. we are doing well and are looking forward to starting the journey of parenthood again soon. of course we have to wait for the go ahead from the doc ;)

happy wednesday!!!

with love always...

danielle