todays the day…the
beginning of my weight loss journey…again. if you have been around me for any
amount of time you know that my weight is constantly up and down up and down…this
is mostly due to crash dieting or yo yo dieting…basically eating absolutely
nothing then gorging because im soooo starving.
anyways…i thought this time i would
do things the right way…hmmm…theres a thought. i am going to exercise and watch
what i eat. i had to realize that i am a girl {duh} and i cant eat everything
that my wonderful {non weight gaining} husband can. go figure.
so…before I left
for school i had lost 50 pounds doing weight watchers and literally walking my
butt off. ;) this time…i am going to do that same thing just add some extra
exercise in there. now you say…but you gained all the weight back. yes I did…but
that is because i ate terrible and let myself think it was ok to eat whatever i
wanted and wasnt going to gain any weight and then all of a sudden i was
gaining and gaining and gaining. not ok.
first of all i want to be HOTT for my
handsome husband and secondly i want to be able to look in the mirror and feel
good about myself. now this is what i tell my mom all the time because she
always says, “youre beautiful no matter what size you are,” yes of course…i have
self confidence…dont get me wrong. im not doing this because i feel down or
depressed about my weight {well sometimes i do}, i am doing this for me and to
be HEALTHY. i am going to make a lifestyle change for me and my family {now and
future}. i feel beautiful on the inside and am confident in who i am…i just
need the outside body to go along with it.
so…im going to put myself out there
and sort of “track” my weight loss in numbers. i am not totally gutsy enough to
put pictures up quite yet but maybe by the time i get done i will so you can
see the transformation that i am going to have. i am going to do this. i have
set my mind on it…it might take me a year to do it but i will do it…i might not
be in a bathing suit this summer…and that’s ok…ill get there.
keep me in
your prayers {seriously} because its going to be a journey that im sure i will
hate at first but ultimately love in the end. this time its forever. i want to
be able to enjoy {when it happens} my pregnancy without worrying about diabetes
or any weight related issues. i also dont want to be a frumpy mom and a mom
that doesnt seem to take care of herself. not me and if you know my mom thats how
she is too.
its all good…so here we go…follow along and like i said…i will try
to journal {blog} about it as much as possible to keep you in the loop…
day 1 {march 21st, 2012}…186.4lbs {if you know
me this is a serious thing that im posting this}
